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My first week of my last year in college is over and I am overwhelmed. There is so much to do in the next nine months. Build up my resume, apply to listings, write a cover letter and artist statement. Not to mention build up my body of work and figure out exactly what it is I'm trying to share with the world.

I've become so anxious. Counselors and professors are saying, "prepare now, apply now." I'm so eager to figure everything out and get it organized and I've never felt so motivated to get it together. At this point it's not worth it to sit around and worry that I don't have enough experience or aren't as good as other artists out there. I just have to be confident in what I've achieved and understand that I'm going to improve over time. Someone's going to want me to work for them. It might take 20 job applications and 20 interviews to get there, but it happens it will all be worth it. It's going to take time and experience to get to my ideal career. I just need to focus on taking small steps to get there, otherwise I might just crash and burn.

I'm grateful I can find excitement in all this stress.