March 5th - Day 125/365
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It has been a while since I've written anything. I think about writing. I have a lot to share. So here it all is.
I've been doing a lot lately. Which I think I say this every time I write an entry. I haven't written since Valentine's Day. Well since then things have happened. The announcement of Scott Walker's Budget Repair Bill sparked protests in my hometown. I spent the 18th and 19th at the capitol just being a part of crowd and capturing it all with my camera. I've educated myself as much as possible on the situation. It was very moving to be in the thick of it though - let me tell you. There were approximately 70,000 people there on the 19th. It was incredible. People blanketed the capitol lawn while I listened to speakers express their concerns. I got goosebumps every time people cheered or a group of people marched past shouting "This is what democracy looks like!" Although I didn't participate in the protesting, I feel like I was still a part of it. Documenting it. Experiencing history.
Leo horoscope - "Today is a good day to do some research. Your brain is ready to soak in new details."
The past couple of weeks ideas have been brewing for my senior thesis. I wasn't exactly sure what the focus was going to be but then it just clicked. I was spacing out one day just thinking about how I've been feeling. The word 'vulnerable' popped into my head and I knew that was it. Then I just kept visualizing images in my head - ideas I could build and photograph. Even though my thesis isn't based off of the happiest feelings I'm still really happy because now my thesis has become and outlet for the thoughts in my head. Maybe some people will think I'm pathetic or I hold onto to things too strongly for too long - but I am just really passionate. I become attached. It takes me a long time to let go. I think these photographs will help.
This Will Destroy You - They Move On
My internship is still going well. School is good. I made a list of things I'm looking forward to - just to remind me. Mostly, it all leads up to moving back home - to Madison. Maybe some would consider moving back home after college an escape - or the easy way out. Milwaukee is not my home. I don't belong here. I'm done here. And I'm not really sure where I'm going next but I feel like Madison is my next stop. I think I just need a summer to recover from five years of school (and everything else that happened,) to search for a good job or career. To reconnect with the place that made me who I am. I honestly just want to be there. To be close to my parents. Madison makes me the happiest.
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