February 28th - Day 120/365
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Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
030.
So, I have heard the line, "I want to live, and not just simply exist."
At first I wasn't really sure what it meant. How do you live instead of just simply existing? But then I really thought about it and I understood. It's not meant to sound judgmental but I can see how people close to me simply exist. They work full time jobs that they received after high school. They didn't go to college. They got a full time job so that they could support themselves. Most of them complain about their 9 to 5s. They may have beautiful homes, but they are not happy because they aren't doing what they dreamed of.
I understand that there are jobs out there that require employment because the jobs deliver services to people who "need" theses things on a daily basis. Like a grocery store manager. Or a person that does someone's taxes. Or someone that serves food to school children because they need to eat.
I guess I just feel grateful to be a part of the creative realm. There's music. There's paintings. There's photography. Event teacher's are a part of this. They pass of education. I don't know. There's just something about creativity that makes me feel like there's a purpose in life. Like, everything is beautiful in it's own way and it gives a reason to be alive on this earth.
Since I started my journalism minor I've realized how much of am impact news can make on humans. It's like we thrive on drama and thrills and struggle. Why are we here though? To fall in love? To sell food? To be writers and describe the beauties of the solar system? To simply float in a giant black universe? I hope to become a photographer who can show people parts of the world they may never see. Can you imagine living 100 years from now? It's going to be so different. We may not even be around. But those future people, the people who live now will seem so ancient and unknown.
I think in the past few weeks my own personal perception of human existance is that we are here to learn about love, history, and personal growth. I can understand that existance is a long term thing and eventually what we learn now in this modern time is irrelevant in about 50 years or 100 years a billion years but who cares? We honestly really don't have a purpose. The only purpose is to figure out ourselves in the current time. We are just lucky. To see life. To find love. To witness the astonishing things humans have created. To meet others. To change lives. We die, but at least got life. And who knows what happens when we stop breathing. I guess that's the only thing we all have in common. We just don't know what is coming. I think it's going to be amazing though.
This is such a retarded blog post.
At first I wasn't really sure what it meant. How do you live instead of just simply existing? But then I really thought about it and I understood. It's not meant to sound judgmental but I can see how people close to me simply exist. They work full time jobs that they received after high school. They didn't go to college. They got a full time job so that they could support themselves. Most of them complain about their 9 to 5s. They may have beautiful homes, but they are not happy because they aren't doing what they dreamed of.
I understand that there are jobs out there that require employment because the jobs deliver services to people who "need" theses things on a daily basis. Like a grocery store manager. Or a person that does someone's taxes. Or someone that serves food to school children because they need to eat.
I guess I just feel grateful to be a part of the creative realm. There's music. There's paintings. There's photography. Event teacher's are a part of this. They pass of education. I don't know. There's just something about creativity that makes me feel like there's a purpose in life. Like, everything is beautiful in it's own way and it gives a reason to be alive on this earth.
Since I started my journalism minor I've realized how much of am impact news can make on humans. It's like we thrive on drama and thrills and struggle. Why are we here though? To fall in love? To sell food? To be writers and describe the beauties of the solar system? To simply float in a giant black universe? I hope to become a photographer who can show people parts of the world they may never see. Can you imagine living 100 years from now? It's going to be so different. We may not even be around. But those future people, the people who live now will seem so ancient and unknown.
I think in the past few weeks my own personal perception of human existance is that we are here to learn about love, history, and personal growth. I can understand that existance is a long term thing and eventually what we learn now in this modern time is irrelevant in about 50 years or 100 years a billion years but who cares? We honestly really don't have a purpose. The only purpose is to figure out ourselves in the current time. We are just lucky. To see life. To find love. To witness the astonishing things humans have created. To meet others. To change lives. We die, but at least got life. And who knows what happens when we stop breathing. I guess that's the only thing we all have in common. We just don't know what is coming. I think it's going to be amazing though.
This is such a retarded blog post.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Saturday, February 12, 2011
029.
I really wish I could get motivated for my senior thesis. I've got ideas in my head but for some reason I don't execute them. I think I need to spend a day where I sit down and start sketching things out, gather materials, set up a studio area, and acquire a model. I really want to turn these ideas into photographs because I believe they're going to be beautiful images. I've become so enthralled in my journalism minor.
Anyway, the point of this post is to talk about my living arrangements. My lease is only for about 3 1/2ish more months. Sometimes I try to convince myself I want to stay in this city, especially if I can find a job right away. I think my best bet if I stay here is getting a studio apartment that has a 6 month lease option so I can stay at my current job while I look for a real job.
There are career days coming up at my college and I'll be checking those out. It would be awesome to start applying for jobs now so it'd be a possibility to get a job right out of college.
I guess I'm just worried about staying in Milwaukee. I don't know if it makes me a big loser but I love my hometown and I want to be close to my parents and my family and my friends. Milwaukee feels so temporary to me. Madison feels familiar and comfortable and I think some people thinks that a bad thing, but if it makes me happy then what is so wrong with it?
I keep coming across great apartment deals but I hesitate emailing about them because I'm not 100% sure where I want to be right now. Or what opportunities are going to pop up in the coming months.
It's pretty scary. I don't want to be that person that's sitting around for 1 or 2 or 3 years after college still trying to find a job in their field. i spent 5 years in college for a reason. So I'm going to go hunt Craigslist some more :)
Anyway, the point of this post is to talk about my living arrangements. My lease is only for about 3 1/2ish more months. Sometimes I try to convince myself I want to stay in this city, especially if I can find a job right away. I think my best bet if I stay here is getting a studio apartment that has a 6 month lease option so I can stay at my current job while I look for a real job.
There are career days coming up at my college and I'll be checking those out. It would be awesome to start applying for jobs now so it'd be a possibility to get a job right out of college.
I guess I'm just worried about staying in Milwaukee. I don't know if it makes me a big loser but I love my hometown and I want to be close to my parents and my family and my friends. Milwaukee feels so temporary to me. Madison feels familiar and comfortable and I think some people thinks that a bad thing, but if it makes me happy then what is so wrong with it?
I keep coming across great apartment deals but I hesitate emailing about them because I'm not 100% sure where I want to be right now. Or what opportunities are going to pop up in the coming months.
It's pretty scary. I don't want to be that person that's sitting around for 1 or 2 or 3 years after college still trying to find a job in their field. i spent 5 years in college for a reason. So I'm going to go hunt Craigslist some more :)
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
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