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I really wish I could get motivated for my senior thesis. I've got ideas in my head but for some reason I don't execute them. I think I need to spend a day where I sit down and start sketching things out, gather materials, set up a studio area, and acquire a model. I really want to turn these ideas into photographs because I believe they're going to be beautiful images. I've become so enthralled in my journalism minor.

Anyway, the point of this post is to talk about my living arrangements. My lease is only for about 3 1/2ish more months. Sometimes I try to convince myself I want to stay in this city, especially if I can find a job right away. I think my best bet if I stay here is getting a studio apartment that has a 6 month lease option so I can stay at my current job while I look for a real job.

There are career days coming up at my college and I'll be checking those out. It would be awesome to start applying for jobs now so it'd be a possibility to get a job right out of college.

I guess I'm just worried about staying in Milwaukee. I don't know if it makes me a big loser but I love my hometown and I want to be close to my parents and my family and my friends. Milwaukee feels so temporary to me. Madison feels familiar and comfortable and I think some people thinks that a bad thing, but if it makes me happy then what is so wrong with it?

I keep coming across great apartment deals but I hesitate emailing about them because I'm not 100% sure where I want to be right now. Or what opportunities are going to pop up in the coming months.

It's pretty scary. I don't want to be that person that's sitting around for 1 or 2 or 3 years after college still trying to find a job in their field. i spent 5 years in college for a reason. So I'm going to go hunt Craigslist some more :)